If you have to lie and lie and lie, all for your raison d’être, perhaps your reason for living has always been a lie as well.
When my daughters were contemplating where they would go to college, I absolutely vetoed Temple University, not due to the school itself, but because I knew where it was located, in Philadelphia’s combat zone. The city has since cleaned up Broad Street, but go just one block deep off of Broad, and the same badlands that had been cleaned up on the main drag persisted.